I have to apologize- I have neglected this- and so many things have happened here.
My resolution is to revive the blog- and to get you all involved- I would like to hear your opinions.
For today- hummmn- I am not at my best-I f I am honest- I am lost.
I think most of us had this experience at one stage in here- Captain and I have split up- no no no- nothing happened- I love him- very much- and he loves me- but here comes the catch- and probably the trigger for discussions- should we be happy with what we have in here- or are we allowing our RL feelings, circumstances and so on to interfere?

In my case they do. It is all very real and Captain's circumstances will never allow to share more than we do right now. Today I feel heartbroken- but I have decided to revive this Blog.I would love your thoughts- what do our emotions do with us in here? Is it all an illusion?

Ready for an adventure?

Those of you who know me long enough know that I keep ranting about the fact that there are far too many technicians in SL and not enough who actually breath some atmosphere and life into our SL- well- I found someone who is both- a brilliant technician, precision builder and obviously someone with a lot of fantasy, feeling, sensuality and a sense for asventure and play- amazing!! Well- it's a team behind the SIM and they all seem to be very enthusiastic and spirited.
Take your loved one or a friend- or be a dare devil and make the trip on your own- go to Conundrum and look for the train ride- wow!!! I have done it and I will do it again- it is beautiful- amazing- scary-romantic and stunning!
I do not want to say too much- you have to find out yourself- but this train takes you through numerous scenarios and the love for detail- the perfection- and sometimes a bit of cheekiness is just amazing. Don't miss it.
After the ride explore the sim and the lovely stores- and it seems there is a lot more to see- I have to find out myself.
Look for Conundrum or IM me and I will send you the LM! Have fun!
And- thank you, Ayjay Carpenter for this beautiful detail in SL and Amythe Moonlight-Writer for this amazing SIM!

Today the main store opens- well- not sure what's going to happen there as the groups are rather dormant- but hey ho- it's beautiful- and it has to go live!
So another busy day for me- but for now I am taking my time to sit down and relax- and as my mind drifts I smirk. I am really amused. As Slowly put it- I have succumbed to the hype and started reading "Fifty Shades Of Grey"- and hey- I like it- you just want to read on and know what's gonna hapen next.
What amuses me is the reaction I watch in RL- at the office e.g. - and I am wondering- or rather no- I am pretty sure: next thing to happen is that lots and lots of girls will be on their knees- waiting to be dominated- preferably by Mr Grey (Forget it- there ain't many of this kind- and the ones that are there want a model or a Hollywood Star or something along the lines).
Now- there is the possibility that this awakens some sort of positive interest in the D/s subject- or- and that's more likely- an increased appetite for kinky sex- which is ok too but this means at the same time a great time for all these "wannabe Doms"- and unfortunately there are loads out there- actually- the majority.
I do like this book and the author obviously knows the subject very well- either from own experience or- very thorough research. My feeling is more that she has experienced a bit- not sure though- and my interpretation of her writing is that she is talking about the responsible D/s relationship.
Well- I am looking forward to read on- and keep watching people- but can I have your opinion?

4 July

...and whilst she was strolling along the pond of her so not at all American park Miss Ayla smiled a little smile.

"of course i am wishing a great 4 July to all my American friends- have a wonderful day, a great time with your friends and neighbours and a spectacular firework"

Living in the "Old World" however means being quite lonely on days like today- but hey-
Tomorrow I will tell you a bit about the place I live in- because tomorrow is our National Holiday.
I will tell you about a little rock in the middle of the Irish Sea- the Cat with No Tail- a Viking parliament- Fairy Bridge and maybe a few other things :-)
For now I will retire and think about it- be well and have a wonderful day.

"I have a new little friend on Blue- well- actually three. I have not introduced them to Higgins yet. " Miss Ayla smiled- it was one of those days- busy yes- over busy- lots of people wanting to talk- great- and still feeling lonely. It doesn't happen too often- but it happens.
In this mood Miss Ayla stumbled about this cute little fellow in a texture store- and fell in love- instantly.
So now he and two of his friends are having a good home on Blue now and Miss Ayla smiles- for a while at least.
Saturdays are strange days anyway- yes- time off work- but chores at home- and the weekly shop. Miss Ayla giggles- not that the grocery shopping is a great pleasure- certainly not where I live but it occurs to me that I am in SL far too much- I keep seeing avatars. Today e.g.- I am sure it was Slowly who directed a small and rather timid looking little fellow with a huge- and I mean hugely piled up shopping trolley through the aisles- and she kept piling on more and more stuff. It cost me 15 minutes- just watching- holding my breath expecting the load to fall off- or the trolley collapse- or the little guy- but it went all well- as far as I could see. - And Percy I see every weekend - but instead of Kim he drags a bunch of young kids behind him and looks rather stressed- so that somehow disturbs my picture. Well- I am a bit worried- the boundaries are obviously getting slightly blurry- mmmmh- I might try a TP to the office on Monday morning.

Those of you who know me for a while will also know that I have my spiritual moments.
I am certainly not what could be called religious- but I am certainly a believer.
here in Inverness I have found a genuine community of lovely people who attend their church service at the little High Church every Sunday.
Pastor Laura (exactly Lauraclaire Benelli) delivers an extraordinary experience- it is not some fake service- it is real in lines with the High Church of Scotland. The sermons she reads every Sunday never fail to touch me and inspire me to think.
I have chatted with Laura for a long time yesterday and I do not really want to go into the details- but Laura is one genuine and warm hearted person who has the right background to do this job- and she is doing it so well.
So if ever you have an event that would benefit from a spiritual blessing- this is a place I would recommend- also bearing in mind that Brody Castle is right next to the Church- what a setting for a wedding!

As for Miss Ayla- I will do what I usually do on a Sunday and retire to my platform- until it is time to walk the RL dog and then go to church- at 10 am SL time. Join me if you like:-)

Hi Honey- I am home...

.....well- I am back. Miss Ayla and Higgins have moved on- for better or worse? I don't know. For better financially- yes- no more drama- yes- but heck I miss you all. I miss the ponies- I miss Phoenix- I miss the parties. I miss my strolls through the vineyards and my Sunday mornings on Battle's yacht- oh well. My friends are still welcome on Blue- a lot more quiet- but a great environment for a chat. And I am sure that once Miss Ayla has got all her stuff well placed on the marketplace she will also start cooking again- so watch this space. I will organize events on a regular basis- the next one coming up on 1 July (Pisa's and my rez day) with a Pink Floyd Show at Xaara (yes- where it all started) You will receive the invitations shortly- and you know me- I will keep sending them. The weekend after will be the opening of my mainstore with a party- and hopefully DJ Josef- who has not confirmed yet- Josef!!!!!!!!!!!!! End of July will promise some fun- a hunt in the Duchy- I will feed you bit by bit with hints and details- get your period gear out- saddle up and search for the lost artefacts and the villain who took them. In between- it has still to be confirmed I am planning a concert in the lovely scottish Highlands, where I have a store and a little farm that is open to the public and is a lovely place to sit and watch the sun come up or going down- amazing people and amzing potential and a wonderful atmosphere- oh- and I have heard some brilliant bands over there. Thane Brody lets out his Castle for events- and what a castle that is- so again- watch this space! Nuff said- see you all around very soon. Ayla x